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现实 wrote:
现实生活中你性格开朗.可通篇读了你的搏客,感觉你象个林戴玉似的--多愁善感寂寞孤单凭窗落泪顾影自怜.和你真实的生活本人差距太远. 所以你的搏客并没有把真实的你介绍给关心你的人和喜欢你搏客的人.
 
每个人来到这个世界上十有八九不满意,但都选择了向前走. 因为每个人心中都有一个信念并为这个信念而在努力. 实现理想和信念的人必须要作出牺牲并要成功地排除一切干扰.你就是一个有理想和信念的人.要不然你干吗出国留学?呆在父母身边不也是受到父母心肝宝贝式的呵护.
 
回首一看,几年来你克服了多少和现在相似的困难和挫折. 哪一个也没能阻挡住你向目标前进的步伐. 为爱所缠,为情所绕是许多人都必修的一课. 有人一次就PASS但有人会有反复. 它可遇而不可求.
 
想象得出你太紧张了, 干脆这样想: "去它的 , 世上还有那么多好男人,  现在复习这么紧张, 哪有时间和精力去想其它的 ? " 
 
希望能看到将来你的搏客能让我们读者感觉放松点. 别老让我们轻松点进, 眼泪旺旺点出.
 
June 6
Leowrote:
Of course he is very proud of you. You are doing well.
May 26
Yuor blog is very nice..come to mine when you want and leave a comment!!
Kisses Aryanna
May 4
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June 08

Quote of the day

Sex and the City
 
Samantha Jones:
When I'm good I'm good, when I'm bad I'm even better!

Samantha Jones:
I'm done with great love, I'm back with great lovers!

Carrie Bradshaw:
Have sex like a man.
May 28

Untitled

After all these years I'm finally TRULY happy about my life and who I am.
January 13

Have you ever

Have you ever wished you'd never wake up in the morning?
Have you ever felt disappointed when you realised you were still alive?
Have you ever felt that you'd lost interest in anything and everything?
Have you ever been lying in a freezing bed all day staring at the ceiling when it's warm and sunny outside?
Have you ever felt that no one would give a shit if you disappear?
Have you ever felt that the whole world had abandoned you?
 
If you have, welcome to my world.
January 02

Com'n Barbie Let's Partiiiie

Now I hope everyone had a FABULASO Xmas and New Year coz I certainly did! Went to the Stonyridge New Years Eve party and boy that’s what I call a hell of a party! 2000 people, 7 dance floors! The party started at 2pm and finished at 6am. That’s what I’m talkin ‘bout partying from dusk to dawn!

 

Just in case you missed it, here is the replay (BTW Vicky Lee appeared in the party but I didn't have my cam with me at the time. She looks like a real doll and MUCH thinner in real life than in the magazines.):

 

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Here is me and the gang:

 

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Hotties:

 

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Best dressed:

 

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Worst dressed:(Seriously,WTF is this?)

 

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Here is the ONLY GOOD pic taken at the Deloitte White Xmas Ball(Audit and Assurance also had our own party but I was too stupid to remember my cam and was probably too drunk to take any pics anyway!GOOD TIMES EVERYONE!)

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December 21

December 21

 
December 21  
These words are like tattoos on my heart, hurting me continuously.
 
7 years, 2555 days without you.
In those 2555 days there was not one day that I didn’t wish I was dead, just so I could see you again.
 
You were my sunshine, my world.
I was your favorite granddaughter, your little princess.
You were the only one in this world who truly loves me for me.
 
You said you would live to 100 years old so you could watch me getting married and having my own family. But you broke your words.
 
I’m living a so-called glamorous life now, but it doesn’t mean a thing to me.
Nothing matters when you are not there to share it with me.
 
I would take you to Australia where they grow the best mango in the world.
I would take you on a cruise around the world.
I would take you to Egypt like I promised.
We will move to another country where there is no corruption, no injustice, where the sky is blue and the sun is bright.
But you are gone, left me alone in this cold dark world, without even a chance to say goodbye.
 
I miss you, grandpa.
December 04

Third Week

I know it's sorta dorky to say this, but I love my job!
 
For the first time in my life, I have no issue going to work early. I almost missed lunch today and without realising it, bang, it's 5 o'clock! Of course, the cute boys I'm working with helped (one of them has the sexiest voice...). But most importantly, I'm soooo right for this job!
 
Here are the reasons:
1. I'm power hungry and people seem to be afaid of auditors.
2. According to certain people I'm super critical. Might as well make some money out of it.
3. I'm good at what I'm doing.
4. I look good in suits coz it helps to hide my expanding belly!
 
December 03

It's Party Season!

Hey kids! It's party season!
 
Is it me or is it just sooooo bloody cold this summer?? I went to a couple of parties this weekend and almost froze my little ass off wearing my beautiful but short dress.Seriously, Dude! It's December! Get warm already!
 
Went to a friend's Franklin Road Xmas lights opening night on Sat. Yeah it's a waste of power but at least I could finally smell summer in the air!
 
Here are a few pics I took:
 
My friend's house
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The neighbours houses
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The next few weeks will be packed with parties, work functions and social events. Enjoy!
November 25

First Week

 
Welcome back kids!
 
Yes it looks that I survived the first week at Deloitte. In fact, it's been a rather pleasent week for me. People are so much nicer at Deloitte than some other companies that I've worked for before (cough...National Bank...). I reckon the main differences are: 1. People are much much better educated. 2. People are employed because they are good not because they are some manager's nephew. 3. Playing power game ain't popular at Deloitte and people are treated with respect (are you listening, Jennifer?).
 
Highlights of the week are:
  • I got to wear my new fabulous Smashbox makeup(thanks to Leo).
  • I got a laptop from work.
  • I DID NOT flunk Insolvency.
  • I made some new friends.
  • The CEO looks awfullly like Santa.
  • Hot boys,hot boys, hot boys! 'nuf said.
November 14

Amber's New Year Resolution - Enjoy a Fabulous Life

Yes I know, there are two more months till everybody makes a new year resolution then breaks it within 48 hours, but I just can't wait, k? I mean, why should I? I've finished the bloody course, no more assignments, no more exam, no more Insolvency Act (Yes I'm talkin about u, Michael). I've done a lot of thinking this week (and shopping of course), and I've made peace with myself. My 2008 New Year resolution is: no more self loathing, no more insecurity, love self, stop trying to please everyone else and enjoy a fabulous life. So watch this space!
 
P.S. As you may have noticed I've changed the back ground of this blog. The old one kinda makes me depressed. From now on, it's gonna be all beach and blue sky!
October 01

Meaning of Independence

今天讨论了半天,得出的结论就是,要想独立,就不能指望嫁个有钱人,嫁了有钱人,未必你就变得有钱,就算你变得有钱,也不能明目张胆的shag the pool boy. 所以,我的目标是,自己变成有钱人,到时候,小白脸养两个,一个自用,一个送人。
September 20

出离愤怒

 

虽然手头有一堆事要做,但我还是花了整整一个下午在网上找跟这件事有关的新闻报道。从来没有认真读过鲁迅同学作品的我,终于体会到了出离愤怒这4个字的真正含义。

故事大致是这样的,话说公元2007年间南太平洋一岛国上,一花甲猥琐男(采尼子)娶到一年轻美妻(also采尼子),得一女。猥琐男后发觉妻红杏出墙,杀妻弃女,逃往美利坚。 故事很简单。背后的却隐藏了3年的血泪史。据说此女长期suffer from domestic violence,曾几次进出women’s refuge shelter。最终仍未逃脱魔掌。

然而更加让我愤怒的是网上一些当地华人的comments:

匿名用户 发表于: 09月20日 15:53 更新: 09月20日 15:53 这种女人也没什么值得同情的

匿名用户 发表于: 09月20日 15:11 更新: 09月20日 15:11 了解情况的人应该明白,最开始的错误就是那个女的,想要为了拿PR,跟男人达成生孩子的协议,成功以后又嫌弃男人,最可恶的是还到WLG跟有妇之夫苟且。。。她就图一时之快,怎么就不考虑一下对方的老婆?!现在倒好了,她死了,自己的家庭完了,对方的家庭也好不了----警察已经到WLG那个男人家庭做调查了。。。你想对方老婆知道以后会如何?!让我们为小南瓜祷告,也为那个可能被这个女的搞的家破人亡的WLG家庭祈祷一下吧。。。

有时见过 发表于: 09月20日 13:33 更新: 09月20日 13:33 靠!什么蠢女人啊!明知道自己老公是武林高手还敢偷腥.现在只是杀了她而已,要是以前估计就死得更惨.死了活该

匿名用户 发表于: 09月20日 13:09 更新: 09月20日 13:09 老薛真爷们儿也!杀得好。该女背叛丈夫,与人通奸,活该!

对于中国男人不尊重妇女一事,我已忍耐很久。Chinaren和sohu上铺天盖地的“处女情节”我已眼不见为净。但是无论如何,这是一条活生生的人命。

我不否认,一直以来,我都是排斥中国传统的,什么三从四德,什么遵守妇道,is a load of crap to me。甚至于21世纪的今天,还有中国男人把自己的妻子看成自己的possession和property。在中国大陆,竟然流传着“家里红旗不倒,外面彩旗飘飘的”笑谈。没有人站出来反对这种做法,更有人把这作为一种fashionable trend。然而,如果一个女人背叛了自己的丈夫,那她就是千刀万剐,死有余辜。Ok, so I guess monogamy is against the human nature, but you know what? It’s a two way street!

最后,送给da murderer的几句话:shit happens, people change. You can figure this out when you spend the rest of your life behind the bars.

September 18

成熟的代价

今天终于扔掉了我从国内背来的那些磁带及CD。

6年了。 终于可以从每次搬家都要做的思想斗争中解放出来了。

6年来不停的搬家,添置新的东西,扔掉旧的。唯一没有扔掉的就是这些磁带和CD。虽然很重,而且也从来没有再听过,就这么着一直放在箱子里。但是就是舍不得扔掉。因为,这些东西,代表的是我20岁以前的生活。这些磁带和CD里面的歌曲,是我20岁以前喜欢的。和那时的那些人,那些事,有着千丝万缕的联系。看到这些东西,就会想起那个国家,那座城市,和那个时候的我。

或许,我是痛恨20岁之前的自己的罢。那时的我是多么的软弱,感情用事,容易冲动容易崩溃。

6年来我只听西方流行音乐,因为这些音乐没有soul。这些音乐宣扬的是没有感情的生活,和所有已满足与未满足的欲望。

于是慢慢变得坚强。慢慢的清理掉所有的模糊,所有的神秘不清晰,抛弃感情用事,父母温暖的笑容以及对于某人的留恋和渴念。慢慢的变成西方人眼中勇敢自信的independent young lady.

这是否就是成熟的代价?

September 12

习惯是一个危险的字眼

突然发现,和他住在一起已经有2个月了。
莫名的,竟然出了一身冷汗。
 
其实,习惯真的是一个非常危险的字眼。因为习惯,有人被桎梏在不喜欢的工作里,有人陷入永远无法逃出的感情陷阱。
 
可是,我似乎已经习惯了有他在身边。
习惯了每天和他一起去上班。
习惯了他离开时给我的吻。
习惯了牵着他的手入睡。
习惯了被噩梦惊醒时他给的拥抱。
习惯了他对我的百依百顺,也习惯了在屋子里晃来晃去什么也不做,然后在他为我洗衣做饭的时候象考拉一样粘着他。
 
我肆意的享受着这个男人对我的爱,贪得无厌。
 
只是,再久的习惯也有需要改变的时候。那时,应该是痛苦的吧。就像戒烟,戒酒,戒毒一样。
或许,是该考虑一下rehab的时候了。  
August 27

网上看到的可爱兔斯基表情----兔斯基考试版

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开学初:  开学一周后:  开学两周后:

          

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期中考试前:   期中考试: 期中考试1天后:

               

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期末快到了:得知考试时间:考前7天:  

                

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考前6天: 考前5天:  考前4天:

                

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考前3天:  考前2天:  考前1天:

          

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考前一天晚上:考前1小时: 考试中:

                    

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走出考场:     对某老师的想法……
           
August 14

I'm In Love

I'm in love!

For the first time in 26 years, I can finally say those little words without hesitating.

Since the day I met him we’ve become inseparable.

He wants to spend every second with me, which if happens to some other guy, could become the perfect break-up excuse for me. But this time is different.

I could just sit there and look at him for hours.

I love it when he looks at me with his big brown eyes.

I love it when he snuggles up to me and falls asleep peacefully.

For the first time in my life, I'm willing to sacrifice my precious shopping time for a boy.

His name is Baby Boy and he is my 6 months old Chihuahua.

August 11

Happy Place

My bestie recently went to Korea to get some sort of plastic surgery done. She told me when it was unbearable the nurse kept telling her to “go to your happy place”.

“So what is your happy place?” She asked me.

My happy place is in my Grandpa’s backyard when I was 6.

It was 6:30 in a bright summer morning. Mom and Dad were still asleep. I got up at 6 and went for a run with Grandpa. Then we would play Badminton. We were trying to create as many weird ways of hitting the ball as we could. We laughed and laughed. The next thing I know, Mom popped her head out of the window and complaint about the noise. So we had to move to the front yard to carry on our little game. There was a mixed smell of shampoo and fried egg in the air. I thought life would go on like this for ever.

I don't play Badminton anymore and getting up before 7am is just purely painful.

June 13

被点名了?都不知道?My answers to 50 questions

 

 

被点名了?都不知道?
来自Mable
 
【规则】
完成游戏的人将会永远得到大家的祝福。
根据问题回答,然后再点名其它朋友回答,被点名的朋友需在自己的Blog里公开
。要在自己的博客里注明是从哪里接到的,被点到名字的人将会得到大家的祝
福,并且所有美好的愿望都会在不久的将来实现。
A. 必须点名至少8个人,用尽所有办法通知各人参与这个游戏。
B. 被点名的人不可重复被点,每个人只可玩一次
C. 回答完问题后,需自行删除一个不喜欢的问题, 更换一个新的问题,然后点名其它人来玩 如此延续循环
D. 答案需在各自的BLOG公布 —— 没有BLOG的也可以直接在我这里回答。
【作答】
1 我要问的是,生日的时候你最想得到的礼物是什么?(What present do you want for your Birthday?)
-a red Porsche 911. coz hot babe drives a red car!
 
2 梦想绕了十八弯以后,你已经到了婚嫁之年,可你还不在路上,你会怎么选择?如果结婚是父母的意思,无法推卸呢?(What would you do if you are getting older everyday but still haven't met "the one"?)
-结婚和年龄有什么必要的关系吗?
 
3 如果中500万,你会怎么花?(What would you do if you win 5 million dollars?)
-环游世界然后定居Gold Coast
 
4 你最恐怖的事情?(What's your biggest fear?) 
-fall in love
 
5. 简单描述自己( Tell us briefly about yourself.)
-色厉内荏
 
6. 你现在最想做的是啥?(What do you wanna do right now?) 
-shopping,因为很久没烧了
 
7. 心中理想伴侣的八个条件 (Your ideal partner should be-)
-rich,thin,hot body,hot ass,good looking,funny,smart and MUST love me
 
8. 假设你肯定具备这方面的能力。同时,一定要选择并且只能选择一个的话,你希望自己(或者你老婆)第一胎生男还是生女?同时,给这个不幸的小家伙起个昵称(小名)(Do you want your first born to be a boy or a girl? And by what name?) 
-不喜欢小孩子,但是如果shit happens,let it be a girl
 
8. 你选择一种改变时候,最大的动力/动因 是什么( What motivates you to change?)
-我妈的名言,如果你对目前的状态不满,那么就去改变它
 
9. 你会选择一份有稳定收入的工作还是一份自己喜欢的工作? (Do you prefer to have a stable job or to do something you are passionate about?) 
-both
 
10. 假如你的伴侣得不到父母的认同,你会坚持还是放弃此段感情?(What would you do if your parents don't get along with your partner?)
-坚持
 
11. 如果30岁还嫁不出(娶不到)你会怎样?(What would you do if you are not married at the age of 30?) 
-跳楼......just kidding,嫁不掉就算了呗
 
12. 祢爸妈生日几时阿(What's your parents' Birthday?)
-confidential infomation
 
13 你是想找个你喜欢的人,还是喜欢你的人作为你的终生伴侣?(Would you marry the one that loves you or the one you love?) 
-both

14 你希望在别人眼中是怎样的人? (What kind of person do you wanna be?)
-rich,thin,hot body,hot ass,good looking,funny,smart and cool

15 当孤单的时候会想起谁?(Who would you think about when you are lonely?) 
-我的爷爷
 
16. 你喜欢一见钟情还是日久生情?为什么?(Do you believe in love in the first sight or love when you get to know each other?) 
-我一般都是一见钟情,但很快就厌倦了
 
17. 你曾经把哪些男(女)明星作为你的梦中情人?(Who is your celebrity crush? Can be both male and female) 
-女的:Christina Aguilera

18. 如果可以满足你一件事,你会要什么? (If only one of your wishes may come true what would it be?)
-I want my Grandpa to be alive
 
19.what is your favorite color?
-white
 
20. 最喜欢的地方?(Favorite place?) 
-dancing floor
 
21. 你怎么知道自己喜欢一个人?(How do you know when you are in love with someone?) 
-when I start waiting for his phone calls
 
22. 喜欢冰淇淋的种类?(Favorite icecream?)
-banana flavoured
 
23. 最近在吃的东西?(What have you been eating lately?<what a dumbass question>)
-饭
 
24. 最近关心的话题?(What concerns you lately?) 
-final exams

25. 最近常去的地方?(Place that you go to a lot lately?) 
-library
 
26. 最近最想做的事?(What do you want to do the most lately?) 
-回家
 
27. 最近身体情况?(What's your health condition lately?) 
-很不好
 
28. 对朋友最想说的话?(What do you want to say to your friends?) 
-Thank you for everything.
 
29. 对自己最想说的话?(What do you want to say to yourself?)
-Sort out your shits!
 
30. 最喜欢吃的食物 (Your favorite food?)
-没有
 
31. 最喜欢的水果(Your favorite fruit?) 
-没有

32. 你愿意一辈子守在同一个人身边吗?(Do you want to spend the rest of your life with only one person?)
-I wish I could but can't guarantee it
 
33. 最近最郁闷的一件事 (What bothers you lately?) 
-boy issues
 
34. 最近看的一本书 (What have you been reading?)
-Company Law Statutes
 
35. 结婚,喜欢办酒,繁文缛节的仪式还是洒脱的外出(What's your dream wedding?) 
-Beach wedding
 
36. 旅行结婚最想去的地方(Where do you want to go for your honeymoon?) 
-Egypt

37. 会原谅曾经伤害过你的人吗?(Would you forgive the person who's hurt you before?) 
-不会
 
38 你认为婚礼上有什么必不可少的程序?( What do you think is the most important procedure in a wedding?)
-kiss
 
39. 你在哪个城市?你最喜欢它的什么地方?(Which city do you live? And what do you like about it?)
-Auckland, it's my home now

40 你最喜欢自己性格的哪个方面?(What do you like about your personality?) 
-乐意助人

41.愿意什么时候请我吃顿饭么?(哦hohoho~~~~) 
-ok

42. 一天有25个小时,那你在多出来地1小时内会做些什么事情?(If there was 25 hours per day what would you do with that extra hour?)  
-睡觉
 
43. 认为恋爱几年是最适宜结婚的? (How many years do you think people should spend on dating before they get married?)
-For ever
 
44. 这辈子最想去的地方?(Your "must go" travel destiny before you die?) 
-Egypt
 
45. 描述一下你最近一段时间的typical life。你对现在的生活状态感到满意吗?(What's your life like lately? And are you happy about it?) 
-big mess. not good, not good at all
 
46. 最讨厌和哪种人交往?(People that you will never be friends with?) 
-食言的人
 
47. 如果你生命将快结束,你最后做的是??? (If you are dying, what's the last thing you want to do?)
-和亲人一起
 
48 最受不了自己的哪个缺点?(What do you not like about your personality?) 
-喜新厌旧
 
49. 告诉我你真正想要的,愿意花一生去得到的东西?(Tell me the one thing that you really want and would spend your whole life to get it.) 
-cliche but true, "happiness"
 
50. 如果男(女)友做了对不起你的事,然后回来和你道歉,你还会原谅他并和他在一起吗? (If your partner cheated on you would you forgive them?)
-depends
 
51. 哪首歌能穿透你的心灵? (Your fav song?)
-Hurt by Christina Aguilera
 
52. 你能放下现在的生活,去乡村或其它城市重新开始吗?(Can you leave everything you own now and move to a different city?) 
-definitely(yes i can but not to the country side)
 
53 上个月的薪水你怎么花的?(What did you spend on last month?) 
-上个月没薪水

54 新房装修,你会用什么颜色装饰卧室?(What colour do you want for your bedroom walls?) 
-white

55 你希望在何时何地因为什么认识你的另一半?(How would you like to meet the one?)
-这些都应该coming naturally (stolen from Mable)
June 04

世界上最幸福和浪漫的事

 

Saw this one in May's blog and it moved me to tears.

The most romantic thing is--holding your hand and growing old with you.

Quote

世界上最幸福和浪漫的事
世界上最幸福和浪漫的事就是------执子之手与子偕老
 
Retrieved June 4,2007 from http://morningmm.spaces.live.com/
May 28

My Celebrity Look-alikes

 
http://www.myheritage.com
May 22

Hurt - Christina Aguilera

 
Everyone has a song that gets them cry everytime. This is the one for me.
 
It reminds me of that one person who truly loves me in this world. Unfortunately, God has taken him away from me.
 
I just want him to know that
 
Everything I've ever done, I've done it for you.
 
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

 
 
Hurt - By Christina Aguilera
 
Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you
Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just want to hide 'cause it's you I miss
You know it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
If I had just one more day, I would tell you how much that
I've missed you since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line to try to turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you for everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you
May 21

So Together But So Broken Up Inside

 
我的生活可以用一个词来形容:一团糟。

这话可不能让我的朋友们听到,否则他们可能会给我一拳,然后说,What the fuck are you complaining about, Biaatch??的确,在别人看来,my life is sweet as. 刚刚拿到一份很多人羡慕的工作,有两个爱我的男人,经常出入高档餐厅和上流社会的party。What more could a girl want?

但是我知道我并不开心。

我为自己安排众多的社交活动,不是因为我是一个sociable person,而是因为寂寞。尼古丁和酒精是我最好的朋友,夜里陪伴我的则是无止境的梦魇。每天夜里,我都会做同样的梦,梦到自己在茫茫大雾中寻找回家的路。

就像Kelly Clarkson在她的一首歌里唱的“so together, but so broken up inside".

没有人理解我为什么会需要两个男朋友。是贪婪吧。因为需要很多很多的爱。因为只有两个男人的爱才足以温暖我冰冷的心。

其实,只有我自己知道,这一切都是自欺欺人的。所有的这一切,都不是我想要的。34米长的豪华游艇温暖不了我的心,海景豪宅也温暖不了我的心。

有的时候,坐在他的法拉利跑车里,我会想起很多年以前那个温暖的午后,爷爷用破旧的自行车载着我逛街的情景。突然发觉,自己已泪流满面。 
May 04

Don't Fight with a Scorpio

 
Scorpio is sensitive, decisive and acting with crazy style. Don't fight with a scorpio, coz his persistance will just beat u finally, no matter how long it takes, but he is the winner.
 
By "Wonder Cat Woman". Retrieved from http://portiaj.spaces.live.com/
April 27

My Guardian

 

每一个人都有一个一直守护他的天使
这个天使如果觉得你的生活太过悲哀,你的心情太过难过
那么他就会化身成你身边的某一个人
也许是你的朋友,也许是你的恋人,也许是你的父母
也许是你仅仅见过一面的陌生人
这些人安静的出现在你的生命里,陪你度过一小段快乐的时光
然后他们再不动声色的离开
于是你的人生就有了幸福的回忆
即使以后你的道路上布满了风雪
可是你依然可以想起曾经幸福的事情,你就可以依然勇敢

I've lost you for nearly 6 years. I still get teary whenever I think about you. How have you been? How is heaven? I still can't forgive myself for losing you. Wish I could press rewind, I would give anything to spend one more day with you.
 
I love you, Grandpa.
 
 
April 19

I'm not missing you - By Stacie Orrico

This is the song that I've been listening to over and over again lately. It told the truth and taught me a lot. So I'm just gonna dedicate it to all the people that have hurt me in a relationship before. I wanna let y'll know that I'm ok and...yeah, I'm not missing you and maybe love is just for someone else.
 
I'm not missing you
 
Been through just about everything that I could go through when it comes to relationships
Don't know what I was missing or why I ain't listen when I told myself that was it
Now here I go, hurt again, cause of my curiosity
Now that it's over
What else could it be, besides a cheat

I made a promise never to settle
Why didn't I keep it?
Cause I hated the heartbreak,crying and cheating, the fooling around
 
But I'm not missing you
I'm not going through the emotions, waiting and hoping you call me
I'm not missing you
You might have had me open but I must be going because I got lots to do
I know I'm usually hanging on I used to hate to see you gone
But this time it's different, I don't even feel the distance
I'm not missing you

It's a shame in a way cause I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face? Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again when I know what the end will be
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?
No I can't be with you cause I'm scared felt like I was falling when you left me
I can't keep going through life unaware of what I missed and the person I could be
Love's good when it's right, bad when it's left in your memory all the times
I guess love will be nice for someone else this is life

April 15

Gone - By Kelly Clarkson

What you see's not what you get
With you there's just no measurement no way to tell what's real from what isn't there
Your eyes they sparkle
That's all changed into lies that dropped like acid rain
You washed away the best of me
You don't care

You know you did it
I'm gone to find someone to live for in this world
There's no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
Just a bridge that I gotta burn
You were wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
Coming back when I've finally moved on
I'm already gone

Sometimes shattered
Never opened
Nothing matters
When you're broken
That was me whenever I was with you
Always ending, always over, back and forth, up and down like a roller coaster
I am breaking that habit today

There is nothing you can say
Sorry doesn't cut it babe
Take the hint and walk away cause I'm gone
Doesn't matter what you do
It's what you did that's hurting you
All I needed was the truth
Now I'm gone